Sunday, February 27, 2011

The Unthinkable..

"You can't teach an old dog new tricks" 
"You'll never change"
"Once you start, you will not be able to stop"

All of these quotes are pretty common in todays society. There isn't hope. "I've gone too far". This thought system is so wrong. You see as chosen people we CAN start over. We can change. Impossible has never been so close to coming true. Christs' love for us is enough to not only cover the past but build us the foundation we need for support in our everyday life. The thought that the word impossible is relevant is so twisted. Nothing is impossible for Christ Jesus. This mindset is pretty desirable though for us. I mean, think about it...once you sin a few times it is easy to slip into "well im not going to get any better, so why stop now?"

     I know that for me this thought has passed through my mind a lot. But please, listen to what Christ is saying in Romans 12:1 "And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice--the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him." He does not care what we look like on the outside. Not at all, all he is asking for is our soul. Our "body". You can be broken and hurt, suffering and ashamed but after you realize this; run to Jesus. Run with arms wide open. 
    Today in church we sang a song How Can I Keep From Singing. This song made me cry. We sing it about every 2 or 3 weeks and EVERY time it gets me. "I know i am loved by the king, and it makes my heart want to sing" Christ Jesus, the RULER of the Universe loves me. I am his desire. He is my biggest fan, rooting for me to take the straight and narrow. If i have Him on my team then  "well im not going to get any better, so why stop now?" this mind set is counterproductive. 
    I live in a small town. Im just another average student.I 3.5 on a good day. Im short. I eat too much junk food. I watch too much tv. I cry too much.I have black hair. I laugh loud. But none of that defines me. I am LOVED by a king. That defines me. Ladies and Gentlemen next time someone tells you that impossible is real. Just remember this. 
    In my home town everyone said that it would never snow. I've lived here 15 years. All we see is frost every winter. Because snow was "impossible". Not this year. 
This year it snowed. Impossible is not a word when it comes to God. Be it to do with the climate, my attitude or anything in between. Our God is more powerful than "impossible" 

Thursday, February 10, 2011

And Then I'll Sing

Days like today make being happy seem so far away. Like truly being happy is impossible. But then i stop. I stop and turn up my iPod and think. Try to really look into my life and see what is going on. Then i stop and think. Why am i here? What is it for? Then i realize that it does not matter. I was put on this Earth by my Father. I was put here to be a light in the darkness. And for that i can stop. in the middle of the road. Stop and sing. 
In these feelings today i made a list of things that make me smile. Make me happy to be here.







To be able to be who i want with my friends is so important to me. God has blessed me with friends who dont care if i'm too loud, if my laugh is embarrassing and if i sleep talk. 

Having a brother who will listen to me no matter what is going on is so amazing...


Having a Friend who doesn't care that i'm not athletic, and someone who will take photos with me over and over...

Being able to be who i want to be...

                                                                                                              
Having a friend to be different with...



Crying...

Having friends who know that i change my mind....


Laughing, Crying, Hitting, Screaming, Hurting and Hugging all with the same person....



Leaving my mark on this earth...






For these things i am happy. And for these things, ill stop and sing.