Violets & You Are So Blue

I look into your eyes,

once piercing clear

Foggy & abandoned. 

& you lie to me

"I'm great, how are you?"

I believe in you, 

like a fairy tale's promise.

Innocent & simple. 

But you lie to me. 

"I love you"

You can't imagine I'm on your side

You protest & decide 

It's not worth it. 

So you lie to me. 

"It's going to be okay, I swear"

So I'll amuse you. 

I'll see your hazy eyes &

Still think you're beautiful. 

Because I'm lying to you. 

"I'm great, thanks for asking"

It'll all work out 

Can't you see it?

Look past these tears 

Let's just stop lying. 

"A promise is a promise" 

Paint splatter

I am going to make mistakes, gain weight, fail tests, be broken hearted & I'm going to be so mad I want to sleep all day.
& all of that is okay because life is a journey; life is a hurtful, twisting, stomach upsetting,PAINFUL experience,
But it's also miraculously perfect if we let it be.

sweet sorrow

Seas were calm & the breeze was peace.
Life as you knew it was as close as it's definition : perfect.
Skating past outlets of hurt and heartache.
Blind to the cruelty your planet had to offer.
Suddenly.
Abruptly.
Prematurely.
The core of your world was rocked and wrecked.
Your heart bleeding out while you desperately look for a foothold.
Abandoned in this hurricane of chaos as the sky turns it's back.
Black and brewing, it's apparent your soul is soon to give way.
Unexpectedly you're cold and lifeless yet still breathing.
Gravity holds you down & demands perfected existence.
Paralyzed by fear you can walk only alone.
Never again will that peaceful breeze overtake you.
Sweet surrender into the lapping waves will never dampen your hair or flavor your skin with it's salty sweetness.
Cold and overflowing with silent sorrow.
& the burning magma of your broken center is all to blame.

aimless attempts at it

and then you whispered, "i love you".
the three words that would cripple my heart and wreck my world.
i packed my bags.
no one would have ever known how deep your love really burned my soul.
i was even blind to the long-term side effects.
running seemed to be the best option, because you claimed boundless and undying love.
distance seemed safe.
you disguised your selfish consistency as something we all desire: intimacy. 
blind and hopelessly looking for validation, i fell.
I thought maybe there could be a chance that this was what it really looked like.
but, blind.
you are acid.
corroding what used to be solid.
quicksand, i lost my footing and was swept away & under the wake of your self absorbed mission.
blind and alone & i hear you whisper.
"i love you".
now i leave and you have no control on my heart, nor my footsteps.
your words are just that.
pitiful, desperate attempts to tame & chain.
i'll slip into your quicksand and away from your grip.
you are acid,
and i'm invincible.