When?

Lately I have been losing sleep. i have made one too many Pro and Cons lists. i have written letter after letter trying to explain myself. I dont know what to do or where to turn. i know what i want. but then when i wake up i feel like i have made the wrong choice. Every day it's different. How do you know that you have made the right choice? How do you know it is all "going to be okay" why cant the people that you want, want you back? how long is it going to be until i get my answers? how long. how long.