To my Mister

my phone vibrates and i don't even look at it. i know its not you so why bother? i continue on with my day and nothing really is that different. Its not that im sad im actually really happy. Life is good. friends are marvelous and my family is close. i go to school to sit and learn, lunch and break are my favorite parts. I smile, i laugh. I cry and i hurt. Its not that im sad, im actually really happy. I go to work and love it. I get splashed and giggle. I call my students by whichever superhero they are that day and i smile till i clock out. I drive home and end up in a haze. Its not that im sad, im actually really happy. i go on dates and get the butterflies. I sit in church and learn such great lessons. I play ball with my boys and shop with the girls. but at the end of the day as i try to slip into wonderland there is a piece of me sneaking out of the door into the dark cover of the night. Its not that im sad, im actually really happy. That part of me flows to the outside and the search is on.
they're looking for you.
I have a list of my wants and plans but it leaves that behind and is finding you.
You will love me and you will care.
You'll listen when i talk but shut me up when it's right.
You'll come shopping with me and never say i look fat.
You'll take me to dinner and refuse not to pay.
You'll act like you know which curtain looks better
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You'll vote on what shoes i purchase.
I dont know what you look like, your age or your eyes but i do know this.
Right now your phone vibrates and you don't look at it. You know its not me so why bother? you continue on with your day and nothing really is that different. Its not that your sad,  youre actually really happy. Life is good. friends are supportive and your family tight knit. youre in school zoning out in class, lunch and break zoom by. you smile, you laugh. You cry and you hurt. Its not that youre sad, youre actually really happy. you go to work and love it.You drive home and your music is too loud. Its not that yorue sad, yorue actually really happy. You go on dates and get the butterflies. You pull out their chairs and listen to their stories. You sit in church and learn such great lessons. You play ball with your boys and consul your girl friends but at the end of the day as you try to slip into your dreams there is a piece of you lingering outside in the dark obis. Its not that youre sad, your actually really happy. But that part of you flows to the outside and the search is on.
Youre looking for me & where i am.
Youre not quite sure where i am or who i am.
But let me reassure you, i will love you.
I'll go to games & cheer by your side
I'll pretend to know about cars and care about guns.
I'll help you find clothes that match and fall in love with your cologne.

Its not that life without you is sad, its just not what it could be.