I tried to block out the words as he told them, but my ears wouldn't close.
He painted such a vivid picture in my mind, it's like i was there.
It was worse than i had imagined and as my eyes filled to the brim with tears i distracted myself.
Listening to the words of sorrow spill over the table i started thinking about my relationship with him. About how much he meant to me. I went back to sophomore year when i had class with him Tuesday- Friday at too-early-oclock in the morning. I went back to the talks he would give me about boys and about how i deserved better. I went back to the day when Max died how he was there. I went back to my 17 min. long hug on my 17th birthday. I went back and i smiled.
But then my mind drifted to the few months where he was gone. It got dark as i remembered de-friend-ing him. And even darker when i would walk by and see him at school and not be able to just run up an hug him.
But then i fast forwarded to this evening. Seeing him at my party just makes my heart happy.
When we graduated and walked out of the aisles of plastic white chairs i was hugging him. The end of high school and i finally had him back. When we hugged for our photo op in our caps and gowns i wanted to cry.
This boy means so much to me i really can't handle it.
I guess what they say is so true- you do not know what you have until its gone.
i know that he is going to school far away from me and i know that we have had our up's and down's but i hope he knows how much he means to me. i love him so much and i am so proud of who he is.
He have been through so much and yet he lights up a room when he walks into it. I am so blessed to have him in my life and i love him to the moon and back.I can say beyond a shadow of a doubt that he is going places in life and i hope he knows i support him and will always be here for him.
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