I guess I am just going to get used to crying. That's my mindset. I tried to fight it today. Actually for the past few weeks. I suppose that I'm so upset about 19 because I finally have my bestfriend back and now I'm leaving. I have to pack all my clothes, take down all my photos and shove my shoes somewhere, hop on a plane and say goodbye to California for 6 months. I've never been so excited and so freaking scared at the same time. I'm ready to leave, but I'm not ready to go without my smiles, without my boys& without the girls I hold so close.
I am grateful for the time I've had with them, but I feel cheated.
I guess that I'm okay with crying, cause I'm not hurting, I'm full of joy in fact. Getting used to the stomach turning fact of leaving the ones I love will take a while, but for now- now I'm just going to seize the day. Enjoy all the smiles and take too many pictures
19 is scary. 19 more days, 19 more sunsets on the west coast.
But 19- you can not rob me of my joy & of the memories i am making with the ones i love
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