Tonight my heart is heavy. I am preoccupied and restless.
I don't feel good physically, I'm exhausted emotionally and I'm distracted mentally.
Tonight i miss my loved ones in PA, a lot.
No, that doesn't cover it.
The past few weeks I find myself crying uncontrollably over them. I printed off pictures tonight. We are hugging, laughing, there were some classic baby bump pictures, the works. I thought it was going to work, maybe hold me over..no.
LBC had it's ups and downs, as anything, but the friendships I have gained from that cold, Mexican foodless state, those friendships mean the world to me. You guys keep me sane, you keep me focused and you keep me laughing (y'all know who you are).
Tonight i am petrified for Simpson.
Shockingly enough I am most concerned about my dorm decoration, making friends and the fact my biology lab interferes with dinner time. (In that order). I'm nervous about my roommate, meeting her and our relationship. I'm a little annoyed that I have to do orientation...all over again.
Tonight I am finding any reason to not be okay.
I hate feeling people's heart beat & when I can feel mine I have to go outside.
Tonight I felt my ticker & walked outside. I reclined in our fancy shmancy lawn chair.
The stars.
Speachless.
I'm tiny.
I'm a wimp.
Skype & FaceTime along with plane tickets.
Thursdays I will eat before my lab.
& ill find someone during WOW week who hates it as much as me.
Sometimes when you are all you can think about it's wise to take a step back.
Perspective, yes P, it really makes a hell of a difference
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