Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Gifts

Today...This week...This fall...has been tough.
College, Boys, Girls, God, Family, Health, Grades, Rumors. EVERYTHING.
It's just been one thing after another, and yes some of you are thinking, " Wow you sure complain a lot."
But in all honesty i am having that same thought over and over again.
I guess at the moment being happy is just not an option.
Today i got slapped in the face.
I am so thankful for unconditional love because with out it i would be stranded.
Today people said some things that hurt.
Today classes were long and teenagers acted their age.
But today...this week...this fall God has been teaching what the word dependent means.

Noun1.dependant - a person who relies on another person for support.

Tonight i had an amazing conversation with someone who i love more than words can describe. 
We poured our problems out like sand on a table. 
Sifting through the hurt,anger and "malice-full-ness" i saw one thing. 
God gives us gifts. 
And to be frank, She is one of them. 
We have a lot in common. 
Good things, and bad things but what is most important to me is that we can have a conversation deeper than how hot a guy is. We talk about big, heavy stuff.
As we came to a conclusion i just realized that God never gives you more than you can handle. NEVER. 
But all through the night there was a topic which i could tell we were both thinking of, but neither of us wanted to bring up. 
August of next year might be too much.  
I am leaving. 
God willing i will be on the East coast. 
That isn't even the same time zone. 
crap. 
I do not think i can handle that. 
But God also tells us not to worry about tomorrow, for today has enough troubles of it's own. 
Personally, i feel like He was writing that with me in mind. 
Cause, im a worrier. 
As we talked tonight we came to a conclusion, whenever there is a dip in your life- be it a puddle or the Grand Canyon there is always a peek after. God always rescues you and brings you closer. 
Every down has an up that is higher than the last. 
And every day God loves you regardless of what you have done or what you have not done. 
So even though this blog is all over the place and i am sure no one has continued reading this far...let me just say one thing. 
God gives us gifts. You may not know it but i can promise that you are that gift to someone. 
God gives us gifts.
hurt
pain
love
loneliness
tears
smiles. 
God gives them all. 

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