I wrote papers, filled out assignments and did bookwork. And my cousin called me.
We talked about everything from Emoji frustration to how extremely important Christmas gift giving is.
Early is not early enough.
I sat at the counter and told her about grad school and internship.
We quoted The Office and compared friends.
She challenges me to find my sunshine.
She's a voice that says do it.
She's the voice that says make a memory.
She's a voice that understands when no one else does.
I hung up and she went to Great America.
As I drove back roads Katy played a very relatable song.
I got home and cleaned my room.
I read and got ready for the week ahead.
erin text me "sometimes he wrings the worship out of you".
I remember sitting in Hollees with her a few weeks ago.
She told me that when something devastatingly difficult happened in her life someone had told her "you'll be able to use this heart ache to help someone in the future".
She said she didn't want that.
No one wants that amidst heart ache and break.
But God knew I needed her.
He knew as her bravery became a way of life mine would be deteriorating.
She can be my angel because she has walked through the fires.
I have been challenged by these two lately.
On how to love more directly.
On how not to redirect conversations to myself.
On how to be authentic.
They both genuinely want me to be okay.
I want to love like them.
We should be less interested in molding someone else's heartbreak into a story from our past & be more concerned with how to walk along the hurting.
I witness selfless love from these two.
I have never been thankful for someone experiencing a similar brand of hurt as me, but without their pasts, I wouldn't be as poured into now.
I wouldn't be as loved & I wouldn't feel as validated.
Learning to use our heartbreak to comfort is uncomfortable and so beautiful.
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