Twisted

Our words morph into different things all the time. 

Sometimes for the better. 

Sometimes for the worse. 

Being a girl in high school is tough.

Especially when it comes to words.

I can not decide which words hurt more. 

The words that are lies

The words that are overheard 

The words that are said with bad intentions 

or 

the words that are true. 

Do you ever feel like sometimes, 

the words that hurt the most were in fact

not meant to hurt. 

OR

That the words that we cling to,

the ones we run to for safety were in fact,

not meant to be a safe haven, but really were just 

space on a page, or letters of a text. 

i hate words. 

I hate getting so strung up on one note,text,phone call,sentence or IM. 

I hate that i have so many locked texts on my phone.

I read it one way but...

what did he mean when he sent it?

i hate when someone beats around the bush. 

Just be honest, 

because in the long run i would rather know. 

And if the answer is no, i will be fine. 

Ill move on. 

cause you are not the first to disappoint.

And ULTIMATELY my happiness doesn't depend on you. 

I mean, some could argue that it does,

but then what would we have to say about all the past ones?

This goes for everyone.

As humans we are stuck in today and the past. 

Start looking into the future and to the road ahead. 

EVERYTHING that has ever happened to you

makes you who you are today. 

All those text from people who have hurt you. 

The break up phone calls,

the well-i-dont-really-want-anything-serious texts,

the "i think of you as a little sister" IM's

All of those ones hurt. 

like a knife to the back they sting and you never see them coming. 

But wait.

There is truth out there 

and there are people who do really care. 

But what you have to distinguish for yourself is

how much you are going to let others words dictate 

YOUR LIFE.

Hold on to the ones that are valid. 

and even more so, hold on to those who speak these truths. 

i hate words.