I'ts Not The Words You Don't say, It's What The Silence Screams.

I get so frustrated sometimes. Irritated even. Sometimes annoyed but mostly frustrated.
I get frusterated with the fact i can not please everyone. You could say i am a people pleaser but i hate that term. I just do not like when people are upset with me. I hate feeling like i did something to hurt someone. 


Lately though, God has been showing me something. Sometimes i let people walk all over me. I let them use me and my time when really i should not be giving them a second glace. I spend so much time stressing over the flaws that they point out that i start neglecting my real friends and family. I let this hurt and frustration  consume my life. 


Imagine a glass of water. Now take a drop of dark food coloring. Slowly the dark takes over, slowly but surely the water changes to meet the color half way. Quickly the water is no longer clean, now it is cloudy and chaotic.


That glass is my world right now. I've been letting everyone drop different colors into my heart. Letting them and their opinions be the guide of my life. THAT is so wrong. This hurt i feel because of them, this is wrong. 


I know that i am worth so much. Lets be real, someone died for me. And when i say someone i dont mean just anyone, i mean the creator of the universe. So really, to let someone in high school effect me this much, that is ludicrous .