Then i said goodbye. And liked it.

Something about to day hurt.
It hurt emotionally,it stung physically and effected me mentally.
I guess you could say that everything fell out from under me and i felt hopeless.
Drama just engulfs me and i dont know how to stop it.
That is what i hate.
I hate when i get so wrapped up into a friendship and then BOOM it's gone.
But something that i really realized today is that God "gives and takes away".
With that being said i really feel like he has been doing an inventory of my friendships lately.
And i have been as well.
Wow.
That's all i have to say.
I have some SPECTACULAR friends who would do anything for me. These people really have my back and that is what i love. i know that no matter what i do.- they will love me nonetheless.
So i sat outside this evening thinking.
As the warm breeze blew across my face i felt God. I felt Him saying, "i know that by yourself you can not make it, so i sent my Son-first and foremost- but also i sent these friends. "
And just because i feel this does not mean that at the snap of my fingers life is going to get easy. Thats not what i want to get across. Basically what i am trying to say is that God will never give you more than you can handle and with trials, pain, hurt, crappy friends and stupid mistakes He has blessed me with phenomenal friends.

Sometimes i forget about the " Pro " side of my list and i only focus on the " cons " .
i AM BLESSED.
i AM STRESSED.
i am the living proof that PRAYER WORKS.
i am THANKFUL.
i have AMAZING friends.

SO.
Goodbye to holding on to grudges.
Goodbye hurt.
Goodbye pain.
Goodbye feeling guilty for nothing.

Goodbye.

BUT.
hello feeling good enough.
hello precious friendships.
hello laughter.
hello smiles.
hello senior year,
hello.