Just so you know: you inspire

I sat down against the wall miles away from home. I looked over to my friend and just smiled. I was here. I was scared. I  was nervous. I was so excited.
 I watched perfect strangers talk, joke, and do homework.
As the door swung open and she walked in, i saw something. Something different. She came in and commanded attention. She told a story that left us all laughing and there was a certain kind of mystery about her.
Later in my visit i broke. There were certain events that led to this point & once i got there the tears would not stop. I took a leap and went to where she was.
"Are you busy?"
Of course she dropped everything and told me to sit down.
My original plan: just tell her bare minimal and ask her to pray for you, nothing else.
NOPE.
That did not happen. She was so welcoming, so empathetic and so loving.
I was so nervous to open up, too worried about what she would think.
You see, even though yes- i had just met her and really knew nothing about her, i looked up to her.
She was bold, beautiful, and so understanding.
As i sat on that couch with her overlooking the parking lot and chapel time froze.
As the minute hand stopped God spoke to me. It was as if He was saying,
 "See, you thought that no one understood, you thought that you were alone. No, you are not alone."
Year after year i told her my story. My hurts, my struggles- it all was out on the table.
I was vulnerable- something that i hate. But it was okay, i was okay.
As my eyes flooded and my heart poured out onto that dorm room floor she was there for me. Right by my side.
She pulled up a word document on her lap top and as she read it i just closed my eyes.
God is so bold in her life. She is so dependent on Him.
As i looked through the window i felt like i was looking into her soul. Yes there was pain, mistakes and hurt, but what i saw is all that matters- the cross. I saw forgiveness and i saw redemption. i also saw hope.
I saw that God's promises real. I saw that the nights of tears and moments of regrets do work for good.
i saw so much maturity.
That word document that she read to me changed my life. She printed me a copy and i almost can quote it for you. It shows me my worth, it shows me God's love. It shows so much.
I couldn't even tell you this girls last name but i can tell you this.
I was scared about going to college on the East coast, i was scared to leave home, i was scared to leave behind all my friends here. I was doubtful that i would make friends, i was insecure and i was sick about starting new relationships.
But, because of her- im excited about going to college on the East coast, i'm not worried about leaving my home, i know that i'll make new friends. Im sure that my worth is through Christ, and if i forget that- the words she printed out for me are tucked safely in my wallet.
I can say that my trip to the East coast was amazing, it was fun & there were a lot of laughs and memories made, but just so you know, Megan- you inspire me.