P R A Y

"no, it's fine i already ate" she said as her stomach turned.
It was a lie, but that lie was her biggest comfort.
She goes home to a house that's not safe.
She walks to school and as she passed by the parked cars she glances at her reflection.
but instead of seeing the beautiful girl that she is, she sees one thing.
she sees her doubt.
She sees her pain.
She sees failure.
She sees all her past attempts at popularity.

For so long the girl she has been is not the girl that is good enough.
For so long she has been the shadow, and not that lead.
For so long she has been crying herself to sleep.
She bleeds and feels no pain, she screams and hears no sound.
She's alone in a sea of people & lost on a guided trail.

She wraps her arms around the only safe place she knows.
Her vision blurs and her heart excels.
The hurt she has been harboring soon is free.
The water swirls around the pain and then it's gone.
She has control and she feels worth.

Ashamed and alone she crawls to the door.
She is weak and she is scared.
Scared its more than a habit.
She leans her head on the cold tile wall as tears flood her eyes;
She has fallen too far and it not valid in anyone's eyes.

She has been lied to!
All that she believes is fiction.
All she trusts has no support.
All that is real to her is imaginary.
For so long she has been disguising.
Disguising the empty part of her soul.
Camouflaging her stomachs emptiness with the smaller size jeans.

She is broken!
Do not let her go to far.
Do not let her break right here.
More people than you know have suffered or will suffer from an eating disorder.
If you know anyone who is please just pray for them.
Pray for their heart and for their soul; that they would realize that their worth does not come from what size jeans they wear but it comes from who they are and most especially who died for them!
Pray Jesus just wraps them in His arms and His love.
Just pray.